Thursday, October 06, 2011

Sitting alone, thinking again... am I into the right thing? where to? The search continues.

An chance encounter today with one of my ex-colleague and senior left me on the thinking table again. It's all about choices you have and choices you make. Different people, same subject but different take. In discussion was the eternal question in this race called 'potential next professional move'.
So, when should a person move and what should the person consider while moving places? One good point he made, which I also agree is, when your contribution to the company becomes significantly more than the company's contribution to your skillset, it's time to move on. He gave some good pointers on what skills set to learn and focus on. What I should be focusing on before making my next professional move to another corporate and all. Very fair points... all well taken.

The point he made was simple - if what you want to learn from entrepreneurship is what you are getting to learn (even if 80%) in a good corporate profile then why opting for more risky alternative. Do good things, learn skills set and earn good money.

This discussion and more, left me wondering... what should I actually be doing? Corporate way or Entrepreneurship way? Again some questions and self-doubts. So, thought will write something on this blog and writing might help in clearing up my mind.

So, why entrepreneurship? I will try to list down few of my thoughts that pull me towards entrepreneurship. All reasons listed here and honest!

  • Entrepreneurship itch started in very first few months in my first job. Why? Probably, I started to think that I can make double the money I made then while working for myself. So, I want to make money .
  • I started to think very early into corporate that the complete environment is more restrictive than free. Free thinking is good only for books. So I need freedom to think freely
  • I have this feeling for long now that they (corporate) can not realize and utilize my full potential.
  • I mostly don't fight much for that one notch up rating in performance appraisals. I don't believe in pushing back much. I know I don't deserve to be there being evaluated based on someone's perspective . My delivery and execution on ground speaks of itself which is corroborated by repeat projects, client's feedback and the respect I carry.
  • I don't find the complete corporate environment enough challenging intellectually.
  • I have taken up tough projects and delivered well. I know I can deliver any type of project now. What's next? Looking for next big challenge!
  • I know that I have lot of potential in me, which just needs a little bit of direction and some means to come out.
  • I have thought of many business ideas (mostly internet based) in past few years. All original. But could not take them forward and have later seen different companies coming up around similar ideas. Disappointing at times, but it corroborates my belief in my ideas and their business worthiness
  • I have started to realize that most of my ideas are customer/consumer centric. I can help create systems to help community at large.
  • When I close my eyes and think how I want to be remembered, I can see myself as a person who has created something significant and have touched millions of lives during my lifetime.
  • I want to do something at the very intersection of creativity and intellect, intersection of left and right brain.
  • I am passionate and creative at heart. I want to see a creation of mine where I put in all my heart and mind. I want to feel that stage where heart, mind and soul becomes one. A creation that will take me to the state of ecstasy, complete synchronization and resonance with nature and universe. That stage is my ultimate pursuit.
  • I realize and know that universe has given me something special and my life will be wasted if I don't use that special something for my life's purpose.
  • I realize that my life is all about pursuit and realization of that purpose.


Yes, I think I have listed most of the reasons that pulls me toward entrepreneurship. I am just a change agent in this special scheme of things.

And, it really helped writing out my thoughts today. I am much relieved, clear and motivated. Yes, all set! I know what I want!
Blurting down inner thoughts on paper sometimes act as meditation it seems. Great!


[tags doubts, purpose, entrepreneurship, the calling, heart, mind, decision, soul, philosophy, self-help, thoughts]