'Time'

'We ain't good for nothing... we were part of crowd then and we will be always...' I can hear someone whispering these words time and again...




It was around this time last year when we started thinking of taking that extra leap and of doing something Big of our own. We spent some good time on thinking and few extremely good ideas (not an exaggeration) clicked as well. But, we did nothing about them and we kept sleeping on them, just to witness other people building empires on them. Ideas, on which we were banking on yesterday but unfortunately didn't do anything about, are foundation of some companies today. It leaves you with mixed feelings – Bloated! That our ideas were really worth few dimes and that we were able to think and see the potential, but at the same time it is sad that we didn't execute them and now others are cashing on that first mover's advantage. Our ideas never moved over half a page of scribbled thoughts and we were not able to execute anything.




We always lived in whims and fancies, dreaming that within one year we will be having something of our own. Now, as I look back I see myself standing exactly where I was one year back, may be just some toddler steps ahead, but not worth a mention. I am still standing there, as if waiting for someone to show us the way, with no movement, no business plan, no research, and no ground work. Just standing with some 'raw' ideas and keeping me occupied with urgent & important of day to day life and finding no time to live my dreams, to build my ideas...




Well, no one to blame, I think that is what makes us a crowd, many people can have great ideas. Just let your mind free and you can visualize miracles happening.. but, when it comes to execution only few succeed. And there ain’t no guru mantra for being successful - all you need is some plan, focus and 'extreme execution', but no wonder these words are far beyond jotted alphabets. Everyone knows the mantra but following is a challenge.. to keep yourself on the track is difficult and to keep moving on that track is the only thing that counts. We keep thinking and dreaming and others Execute.. then we move on, in search of next idea.. Bingo! We get one and again we only dream, and again someone else Executes..



No doubt we were having some very promising ideas but we were never consistent in our thinking and we were never 'focused' in our approach. Our lethargy and delusion of 'urgent' & 'important' killed us and we are dying every day to it.. giving our last bit of flesh to the most lethal & extreme executioner (& assassin) in time - 'Time'




‘Yeah, we ain’t good for nothing…’




- Silent Saint




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Dedicating a song from Pink Floyd that suits every bit to our situation.
‘Time’ – Pink Floyd


Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day

You fritter and waste the hours in an offhand way.

Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town

Waiting for someone or something to show you the way.





Tired of lying in the sunshine staying home to watch the rain.

You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today.

And then one day you find ten years have got behind you.

No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun.





So you run and you run to catch up with the sun but it's sinking

Racing around to come up behind you again.

The sun is the same in a relative way but you're older,

Shorter of breath and one day closer to death.





Every year is getting shorter never seem to find the time.

Plans that either come to nought or half a page of scribbled lines

Hanging on in quiet desperation is the English way

The time is gone, the song is over,

Thought I'd something more to say.





Home, home again.

I like to be here when I can.

When I come home cold and tired

It's good to warm my bones beside the fire.

Far away across the field

The tolling of the iron bell

Calls the faithful to their knees

To hear the softly spoken magic spells.



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The Green Mile...

Yesterday I saw this movie ‘The Green Mile’ and last few minutes of it touches you completely. John Coffey (Michael Clark Duncan) who has got the powers of faith healing is on a death sentence for the crime which he has not done. He is blessed with powers of faith healing and can help people to come out of pain they are suffering from. Towards the end, Paul Edgecomb (Tom Hanks) – a prison guard on Death row, asks him whether he can do anything for John, and John asks him to give up all the worries about him. Here is the conversation which they had in movie in this touching sequence –

Paul Edgecomb: On the day of my judgment, when I stand before God, and He asks me why did I kill one of his true miracles, what am I gonna say? That is was my job? My job?
John Coffey: You tell God the Father it was a kindness you done. I know you hurtin' and worryin', I can feel it on you, but you oughta quit on it now. Because I want it over and done. I do. I'm tired, boss. Tired of bein' on the road, lonely as a sparrow in the rain. Tired of not ever having me a buddy to be with, or tell me where we's coming from or going to, or why. Mostly I'm tired of people being ugly to each other. I'm tired of all the pain I feel and hear in the world everyday. There's too much of it. It's like pieces of glass in my head all the time. Can you understand?
Paul Edgecomb: Yes, John. I think I can

Movie is certainly worth a watch...

And she made me cry...

It was on 12th Nov. '06, Sunday morning, when she came around 11AM and at that time I was organizing few things at my home. She started cleaning the house then she might have felt something.. She asked me to prepare some tea for myself. I told her, 'Paal ille' (I don't have milk). She said, 'Okay, give me money and I will get it'.. Then she asked me whether I have got anything to cook and if I would like to have Maggi as well.. I thought for a while.. ‘Hmm.. Okay’ and handed over some money to her. I was bit surprised and was thinking why she is doing all that. She got all the things from local kirana shop and when she was leaving around 11.30 she told me to go and have tea and maggi. She said, ‘It's already 11.30 and you haven't had anything.. 'po.. po' (Go) and with these two words she left. And it was only after 2 minutes of numbness when I realized that I was still standing at door.. surprised and overwhelmed. Sometimes we don't value their worth and crib when they don't come to work and when they ask for Diwali bonus, but I was moved to see such a generous & motherly gesture.. These small things make difference. She cared for me when some of my so called close friends don't even have time & will to ask whether I am 'Dead' or 'Alive'.